hey~

ha. my apologies for responding to ur blog entry this way. Somehow, some things are hard to say over msn. or sms. or face to face. and i dun think u wanna receive my email.

oh come on. dun say u dunno who u r. while i can uds the urge to k, u need to go run/jog more!!

To be honest, i din noe u were so ego about academic stuff. i used to be like that. And then i had to go ask myself the qn as to why I am studying. Until now i have not found the answer. A lot of it is to feed the ego. But as for my aspirations and dreams....they are cloudy and appear difficult to realise. at the moment.

But hey, at least u have had an idea of wad u wanna be for quite long. And apparently u do enjoy the short experience u've had before. So just go for it eh? As to what track you should go for....well, despite what u said, i still think it is a little early to start deciding now. Somehow, a baseless belief in the saying 船到桥头自然直 does help the mentality sometimes.

Are u lost? i doubt so. It is just that i think u have nothing to look forward to. And that you've suddenly become doubtful of what u have always wanted to be. Pardon my a-bit-too-eager attempt to try and understand what u r going through. i just want to have a deeper understandin of the pple i care abt =) Actually in the end such unexplained sian diao feelings always disappear as mysteriously as they appear. Though i find it extremely disturbin tt u think it will get better when tuts start. omg la. i dun even wanna think abt it sia. Things will just get more and more shiong until it culminates in a bang. *shudders*

having faith in others is impt. but the most impt of all shld be to have faith in urself. Maybe u shld ask urself the qn the black guy percy asked in the movie. If u were never to wake up again....wld u be satisfied with ur life now? The life u've lived so far? What wld u regret abt? u wld be unsatisfied i guess. but u most probably wldn't noe with wad. haha.

ha i dun think i helped. but eh dun u fucking dare start emo-ing. leave all the emo-ing to me haha~